THE BEING POSITIVE PART OF THIS TITLE OF THIS POST is challenging to me, because the last month I have struggled to be so. I sunk into a depression that I struggled to get out of. Positive TALK wasn't working. Praying seemed to fail. I cannot seem to be ill and look at what needs done and stay in a sweet spot. I floundered. This living in a mess as we remodel and shuffle has ran its course and I crashed. Disappointed. I suppose I have to admit that I am human and not a superwoman. I can pray, but what is going on in the world isn't in my power to change. The territory that's mine to maintain has ate my lunch. Hubby and I have too much to do and we're not getting it done with these health issues and I'm sad about it. I don't want to hide the truth. I am weepy and admit it. There can be no excuse that I need my Vitamin B12, Vitamin D at optimal levels. My electrolytes must be monitored. I have to go to war with this and fight the good fight. 💪
We hired a LAWN BOY that will mow our lawn throughout the summer. Looking forward to his help. I had sticker shock when he quoted what he was going to charge. Now I know I'm OLD when I start sounding like my Parents when disturbed about inflation. We need the HELP with the chores. Just the way it is.
TRAVELED TO KANSAS CITY ON TUESDAY FOR MEDICAL APPOINTMENT ON WEDNESDAY. On our way, we stopped off in Topeka to get the car washed and vacuumed. We ate at FIRST WATCH so I could get my salad.
We drove our small PT CRUISER to save gas and spent the night in a nice motel. I was hoping we could do some shopping, but we really didn't get into KC early enough. Instead, we treated ourselves to a HOT KRISPY KREME DONUT. We caught their gold hour where you buy one and get one free. This was the best donut I have ever eaten in my entire LIFE. It melt in my mouth.
Even with dieting, I have to treat myself to something sweet like this occasionally. I did and I will remember that this donut was one to remember.
We went to their large TARGET then watched tv from our room, ate some tacos and tried resting for the night. Indigestion like never before during the night hit me. I was ill. It's been years since I had indigestion this awful. Chewy TUMS worked. In the morning I took a very long shower and shampooed my hair. Standing under the water spraying on my back was therapy. Got dressed and went to Breakfast at Home Grown. SALAD. I boxed up half of it and took it went me.
Went to my yearly follow-up CANCER appointment. Supposedly alright. See me next year. I asked about LABS and was told to have my primary doc do these. I'm just not with the program. I have it in my head that when seeing the Cancer doc that there should be some labs to review to make sure everything is going well and these docs at UNIVERSITY OF KANSAS HEALTH SYSTEM refer you back to your primary doc for the test. The great pass around. I'm perplexed. Same thing happens when going to the Endocrinologist. Labs are suggested to be done by my primary doc to do. Like what should be checked? I'm too stupid to ask the Cancer doc and the Endo. I'm like a deer caught in the headlights, I freeze up and cannot ask important questions that I should. After I leave the office and relax then the questions come to mind that I should have asked. I know I am not the only one that behaves this way or why is there a white coat syndrome? Blood pressure surges. I will go to my health portals and ask them which labs should be followed up on by my Primary Doc. Shall see what they say.
Left KC to go HOME so I could go out with my daughter and granddaughter to watch a movie together. GIRLS NIGHT OUT. Arrived in time to be picked up and go to Manhattan for the show. Daughter provided the ticket and I treated them to the popcorn, drink and mints. I'm ashamed of myself, but I dozed off during the last part of the film. The dark room put me to sleep. I tried to stay awake, but couldn't. Shameful? Just terribly tired.
Afterwards we dropped my Granddaughter off at her apartment and journeyed HOME. Nice Girls Night Out. On Thursday, I was beyond tired. I cannot believe how tired I get these days. Flustered that I cannot get to the bottom of this and feel better. Truthfully, I know that I have no thyroid, no gall bladder, no uterus and don't forget no tonsils. Taking organs out can only go so far. My health journey is a trying one. Thyroid Cancer and Uterine Cancer. I tried to change our eating habits over the last 5 years. Much has changed, but more needs to. Going more natural seems to be the way to do this.
ON THE HOME FRONT. The old faux Christmas tree we hauled HOME from the storage unit, went bye bye as it was placed by the trash can. It was in a large, beat up box and I was glad to see it go away.
We purchased the tree back in the day. I think we had her for nearly 30 years. Got the best use out of her. Saying good-bye didn't hurt one bit. Now to get to where I'd like to be with CHRISTMAS DECOR and storage. Like a whirlwind, I need to go through the decorations and clean house. I wish. 🌪🌪🌪🌪🌪 Where's Dorothy and ToTo when needed?
As we proceed in clearing out the storage units, we have a goal of having another unit emptied by the end of AUGUST. 3 months? I pray we can succeed. This has been a slow step in getting where we need to be.
Knowing what needs to get done, boggs my mind down. Relaxing and having a realistic mind set about it seems to be beyond my reach.
When aging, having serious health issues...it causes other issues when dealing with storage objects. I sometimes think I'm beyond help. I think we waited too long to get our act together.
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