WHAT I SEE MATTERS

Sitting around wearing sunglasses indoors due to having had cataract surgery on Tuesday.  I'll return midweek to see how my eye is doing.  Until I see the doc, I'll be wearing these lovely sunglasses and giving my operative eye eye-drops each day.  

I'll taper off to three drops from four.  Then the following week I go to two drops and my other eye will begin drops because I will be having a second operation and be doing four drops in it.  I will be SO THANKFUL when I heal up.  THANKFUL!  

I cannot wear my prescription eyeglasses as my right eye's vision has changed so much since surgery.  Not wearing glasses is a bit challenging.  Not bending over and lifting has been a challenge as I have caught myself doing just that.  SCOLD myself out loud.  "DON'T DO THAT!!!"

Since my activity is limited I have to busy myself mentally.  I do a little reading.  A wonderful opportunity to do a great deal of thinking and praying.  

THIS TOO SHALL PASS.  The sooner the better.  PTLord.

I want to be able to see, but not to watch the garbage on TV or computers.

CHANGING THE CHANNEL or simply turning the TV off.  I have watched an incredible amount of TV lately.  That all stops today after tuning into what was called a dark comedy about megachurches.  I'm done.  Such foul language and nudity.  Demonic.  I'm done.  With people watching this vulgar programing it becomes a way to pollute minds.  Disappointed that this is considered entertainment.    

My Uncle John would not allow his four girls to go to movie theaters in the 1960s.  They watched television at home when it was wholesome.  TV is no longer wholesome.  It's a tool for destructive living.  Poison is allowed into the home on many channels.  Dear Uncle John.  I wonder what you'd say about this filth now a days?  Adults watch this garbage as well and it does so much damage.

MOVIE CHANNELS have the latest influence on people's minds.  When your impressionable children rub elbows with those who think nothing of the filth broadcasted inside their home environment as well as from their phones and computers, the children you are raising are influenced by the worldly heathens in the classrooms as well as connected to school activities.  Their venom is spewed out and shared.  I believe HOME SCHOOLING has its place more than ever.  Allowing your children to be around so much vulgarity is dangerous and destructive.  Public school isn't what it used to be.  

I have a 14 year old grandson that likes Cardi B.  I watched her latest music video.  Straight from hell.  His mother is responsible for allowing him to listen to and watch this demonic influence.  It's a complicated situation since his parents are divorced. Praying.  

My spirit hurts for my Grandson and all the children being raised in a culture like the one Cardi B. promotes.  Whoever else promotes programs to make money that assists others watching their filth to accept vulgar lifestyles that are taking people to hell will be judged.   

~d

I CAN'T SEE YOU

AS I WAIT FOR CATARACT SURGERY, I have my concerns about what I will experience.  Prayerfully all will go well.  This surgery has been a long time in the making.  I started seeing halos around lights years ago.  Maybe 10.  Gradually the cataracts have gotten bad enough to have surgery one eye at a time.

I went to a Ophthalmologist two years ago.  She told me my eyes were not bad enough for surgery according to medicare.  I left a bit disappointed with the verdict.  Struggled two more years with blurry vision, halos about lights and challenged to focus reading labels in the grocery stores with the items on the shelves.  Trying to read the SONIC DRIVE-IN menus was next to impossible.  Driving at night was dangerous. 

Went in for regular eye exam last year and he referred me to a different Ophthalmologist which said he'd do the surgery in 2024.  Scheduling worked something out and I've been waiting.  Now as the day approaches I'm preparing the house for when I have two surgeries two weeks apart. Then I will not  or should not be bending over or picking up heavy objects while recovering.  I will be next to helpless when it comes to working about the house.  This will be challenging AGAIN. There will be two surgeries so I will be out of commission about a month or so when the time comes.   

I pray for successful surgeries.  The other day, I was thinking about procedures I have had.  I really never thought I would have so many.  I prided myself in the fact that I hadn't had very many in my youth.  As I have aged, they have increased.  Just thinking about being healthy doesn't make it so.  It isn't mind over matter at all.  

I seem to go around the house not wearing my glasses and when we go out for a meal the glasses come off and I place them on the table.  

My Mom, Dad, and older brother all had cataract surgery.  I wish this was behind me.  

I woke around 5:00 Thursday morning and took a nap mid afternoon.  Monday and Tuesday were both action packed days.  I'm needing a rest to catch up with two days in a row that were so busy.  Laundry is going.  I fixed avocado toast for breakfast and chicken salad sandwiches for lunch.  Supper was PIZZA. 

This go round I chopped up a couple of hard boiled eggs with the avocado to make avocado and egg toast.  It turned out super good.

Started out by toasting two pieces of Killer's Dave bread in our small  oven.  While it was toasting, I scooped out the avocado into a bowl and mashed it then added about a half of a cup cottage cheese to it.  Squeezed a small amount of lemon juice into the mixture.  Peeled and chopped the 2 boiled eggs adding to the mixture.  Stirred well adding about 1/4 cup peach salsa. Stirred some more.  When the mixture was ready I topped the toast with the mixture.  Served.

It made for a delicious Avocado Toast with Egg.

Hubby cleaned on the back yard.  A large pile of trash is out by the street as the Sanitation workers come in the morning.  I probably should have worked on the flowerbeds as pretty as it was.  Weather in the high 60s.  This may be our SPRING weather before it turns out so HOT. The weather is unpredictable.

26 days until SPRING!!!  I will be walking a mile each day come SPRING.  More salads.  I have patiently waited for the SPRING.  This WINTER hit me hard, but I stayed busy going through boxes and doing my best getting settled into our tiny COTTAGE.  

I think I'm back to letting go of stuff instead of holding onto it.   That struggle of keeping stuff seems to keep creeping back.  Like being addicted to chocolate.  I'm having trouble giving it up. Take a deep breath and let go.  It will feel so much better being FREE from this stuff than hanging onto it wondering where and how I will house it.

The Dining room will be up and going in a few days before SPRING.  My goal is to work on a different room each month and make huge headway.  Moving into the Cottage getting settled to where we have a roof over our heads and getting the Kitchen situated has taken almost 4 months.  Unreal. Being realistic about the amount of time it's taking has taken me by surprise. It's ongoing.  I have seen a side of me that needs dealt with concerning having my act together. Being carefree I am not.    

The week-end will be here before I know it.  I just need to sit a bit beforehand.  I think we'll take a long car ride today and admire the beautiful weather for the month of February.  When I was dating my Hubby 50 years ago, we had the most beautiful month of February where we rode ten speed bikes thinking we were so sporty.

We were riding side by side and got distracted colliding.  Down we went in the street.  The fall tore the knee out of my bluejeans and hurt my knee.  My sister lived near by so we hobbled over to her place to get patched up.

I was young once.  In love.  Wanting a future with my Hunny.  Here we are 50 years later.  I don't think I will be riding a ten speed bike anytime soon.  Hubby still has the bike.  I sold mine moons ago.  Forget about it and go on.  Today just walking has it's place.  I still fall.  It hurts just as bad.

I'm in hopes that my stride will pick up when I walk,  

~d

CATARACTS

TIRED EYES AND BODY.  It was a very long day.  I had an eye appointment to see what was going on with cataracts.  Scheduled for surgery in March.

I was checked nearly two years ago when I was told they were not bad enough yet.  I had wondered just how bad they had to get before being bad enough to have removed.

Different doctor and two years down the road, I am ready to have these cataracts removed.

Tests, measurements and pictures, eyes dilated.  I walked out of their office wearing rolled sunglasses behind my regular glasses.  Very classy looking...NOT.  grins.  My eyesight is terribly blurry due to the drops that were placed in my eyes and having them dilated.

Hubby drove as I wasn't comfortable driving where the lights appeared as sunbursts and rays.  With it getting darker outside, the lights were overwhelming.  Thankful he drove the car and I drifted off to sleep waking as we enter our city limits. 

Rested a bit then went ahead twisting faux greenery around the extension rod hanging in the doorway.  I like how it turned out.  Some CHRISTMAS CHEER.  For having no tree this year, it helps lift my spirits.  Now to get after the BOXES in the rest of the house to unpack them.  I'm hoping come New Year's Eve that the COTTAGE looks like someone lives here and cares about it.   

Calling it a day in which I am truly tired.  May TUESDAY be a productive day, but a restful one.

Let there be Christmas,
~d