CHECK AFTER CHECK I HAVE SHREDDED. Going through a storage box that I had canceled checks oh so neatly grouped and paper clipped together. One after another the miniature shredder has eaten them alive. So far the earliest check written is dated 1983. Almost a 40 year old check.
I think to myself and sometimes blurt out loud, do you remember when blah, blah, blah??? Tis funny at times as I go down Memory Lane.
Each time a check is written it's actually a CONTRACT stating that the person writing the check is good for the amount the check is written for. When I PAUSE to think what went behind each check...I stop to think of where we were living at the time the check was written, the financial struggles we had after a few job lay offs and when times were tough or sometimes easier. It's another chink in the chain of events.
Each piece of paper represents a chunk of our lives, money from our checking accounts, the time that went behind earning the money that was used, places we visited. Where ever the checks were written entailed time at that location which means I had to physically get there, be there, spend time and return home again unless the check was written at HOME for paying off a debt. Still time was spent doing the books and writing out these expenses.
Checks for hair appointments, dresses for weddings, vet appointments, school supplies, fund raisers, shoes, jewelry, new car tires, labor for auto work. Lumberyard checks for house repairs, braces, medical bills too many to count. Rent, mortgage payments when we lived here, here, here, here, etc. Puppy supplies, utility bills, furniture, groceries. On and on we go, where it stopped I finally know....I can praise God that each check written is in the past...all covered. Paid in full.
There's the check written to pay Uncle Ezra for doing the auto body work on the white Monte Carlo that I put a dent in as I was backing out of the garage hitting the side of the garage door frame when the kids were little. 'Memba that?
Here's a bundle of checks written to my folks when our son stayed behind for his Senior year of High School when we moved to Tulsa from Marion.
These next group of checks are hard for me to swallow. No need to keep them. These pain me knowing that we were out in the weeds as space cadets. So many checks were written for when we were charismania groupies supporting so-called elitist christians in get rich quick schemes. We were in want. Here a Church, there a church...everywhere a church church...old McDonald had a church...ee I ee I o.
I have wiped my hands clean of this ministry and many others. Shredded those ancient checks and never write another one to them. Pitch the books, movies, teaching tapes and videos. It sickens me that our money went toward so many false teachers and not toward our own family ministry.
Many checks written and cashed for T*N (promotes false teachings/preachers), Benn* Hi** (a fraud who waves his arms and people fall down), *00 Club (lead by a freemason), Jo*ce Me*er (taught that Jesus, the only begotten son of God had to be born again), Ken**** Hag** (false teacher/preacher that liked to laugh and chug about like a train rather than read the Bible at his camp meetings), and many others. I hadn't believed any of this about these so called christians until years later after having my eyes opened. I was a naive woman that was looking for more power in my life so I wouldn't get hurt in life.
I was a hurt puppy already that was greedy, self centered failing to see that I had the power of God already inside of me which is the Holy Spirit. I could have and should have read the Holy Bible for myself verses being entertained by false teachers/preachers. Because I had a difficult time reading, it was far more entertaining to attend conferences, watch and listen to hours and hours of programs by false teachers and go to church meetings that promoted them as superior christians.
I am THANKFUL that GOD opened my eyes and led me out of this abomination. I had foolishly written so many checks to ministries loaded with false teachers and preachers. I willingly followed so many thinking I was getting better educated and was pleasing a Holy God. I was a ignorant mess and very militant about it.
Today, I can tell others about how easily and willingly I was led astray and how God woke me up. Come out from amongst them and be ye separate.
When a human fails to see how marvelous it is to go from the darkness into the light when becoming a child of God with Jesus as ones personal savior in which you become a new creation and you think there's got to be more to this than what there is...trouble awaits you. You can be easily deceived. When you have no idea what it means to be a child of God or what the Bible actually means using the correct interpretation...you can be deceived and that isn't where you need to be.
Each piece of paper represents where most of our money went. Here's to new beginnings, forgiving myself and turning loose of old checks. The past is in the past. Bury it and be done? I learned a valuable lesson.
AND AWAY I GO...joining the Shredded Sisterhood. I really need to get one of these hats to make a statement.
2 Corinthians 5:17 |
King James Bible
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
