Need Some Rest

Turning loose of THINGS has mixed emotions attached to it.  As the nice lady and her neighbor loaded up my old freezer to take to a different location, I stared as if it were no big deal to watch their trailer disappear behind the lilac bush.  Like saying good-bye to an 'ole friend, my freezer disappeared for good.  I'll not be storin' me tupperware in ye no mo no how.  She was so happy to have come by our place to take a piece of us with her.  Sigh.  It's time to grow up and admit this appliance is not a person.  I can be happy for this LADY as she has a great freezer to add to her estate.

I want to thin down and downsize so this must be what I have to do to be as I inch my way toward retirement and a different phase.  I shake a bit as I cannot see the end from the beginning.

Last night as we carried the last of what was going to our garage for a Saturday sale, the night became a rash of activity to get the display floor looking inviting to those we did not know who'd be coming in the morning.  It's a wait and see where this all goes kind of event.

It poured that wet stuff called rain making the walk between the house and the detached garage a soggy trip.  Slip sliding away.  

We stayed in the garage sweating as we arranged the items we wanted others to carry away so in the morning we wouldn't have to deal with later in the week.  I marked the last of the treasures around 2:30 am.  Sleep wouldn't come as my muscles ached.  I was having trouble switching gears to relax into a deep slumber.  I decided I'd go ahead and get back up out of my comfortable bed and fix early morning coffee.

Washed some dishes and made a few signs writing on flimsy poster board.  Poster board aint what it use to be.  Shucks...why is that at the dollar store?  Even the sizes have shrunk.  I managed at four in the morning to remember my address where I hang my hat and call HOME for letting others see the direction in which to go.  The signs.  Black fat marker and white poster board make alright posters to draw attention.

The rain poured throughout the night and we wondered if it would rain all day.  Here in Kansas you never know if the skies will be powder blue or misty grey.  Never.  It can take you by surprise and then some.

In a few hours strangers would hopefully be showing up at our garage for a miniature SHOPPE.  Not sure how it would all go...we were ready by 8.  Sale started at 9.  Chilly morn so hot coffee was in order.  

In short order people began to stop and shop.  Mr. Selfridge was no where to be found to tell us there are x number of days until Christmas and the customer is always right.  

We finished for the day at 4 and I needed a nap as Lil Miss watched Minions with her Grandpa.  I could no longer stay awake.  Think that sleep will be sweet tonight as I stretch out under the quilt as the fan blows over me and I hear the buzz of quiet over power me.

Which reminds me that I need to wash the sheets and comforter this coming week.  All the rooms in our HOME need a human touch to tidy them.  As we were going through the rooms gathering things to let go of, it was like a move was taking place.  What a season we are messily in.  If only I could work faster or had a crew to help.....I wondered if my Family room will ever look like it should or stay in a constant frenzy.  It's a mess around here.  Every dear room.  Shut my eyes and pretend it's not so.

I am in disbelief at this.  It's not a bad dream that I will awake from.  If it's going to become orderly once again I'll cross my fingers and be proactive in this endeavor.  Muscles and sweat.  Work awhile.  Sit awhile.  More boxes are needed for loading things to carry away.  

This week I will try like heck to make quick work out of this.

The trees are lush green as SPRING sprung with leaks of moisture.  We went from smoky air due to the control burns in the Flint Hills that make me ill to SPRING rains that wash the environment with hope that there will be better conditions to admire the flowers in bloom.

I hope to be better at keeping a clean HOME if I should live another year.  I can see my HOME in my mind as I close my eyes to sleep how I'd like it to actual be with HOPE that this will become a reality.  Every night I say my prayers and then start daydreaming of walking through the rooms envisioning all that I'd like to accomplish.  It puts me to sleep.  

A pleasant thing to think about when the world is so chaotic.

Some have thoughts of where to vacation, who they want for President, how to make ends meet, share a good work or how to create the next delicious food dish to feed a starving family on a shoe string.  Winning the lottery or how to get a raise in a career that doesn't seem to notice that it's bedtime.  Lifting concerns to our heavenly Father about every thing imaginable. 

I draw a conclusion that we all need rest and I'm ready.

God bless,
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