WE MADE A TRIP TO SAINT LOUIS THIS PAST WEEK FOR GRANDPARENTS DAY. Grandson is growing up to be a tall, handsome young man that ask a great deal of questions. Good to see him and spend some time.
The Tulips in St. Louis were gorgeous. Absolutely gorgeous.
VENTURING TO ST. LOUIS, we encountered SPRING which seemed more like SUMMER with temps in the 80s.
During the day, HUBBY and I took some time to have a mini vacay. We drove out on Wednesday after our eye appointments. My eyes were pretty good, but my Husband was asked to come back for more pictures of the inside of his eye where a potential rip is. So back he will go in a few days for this.
I did alright driving in the St. Louis traffic, but I didn't like it. Way too busy for me these days. Way too busy. Makes my blood pressure climb. Son's apartment is a climb as well where the elevator is out of service and they supposedly cannot get parts to fix it. It has been broken for over a year and he cannot break the contract because of an addendum stating that if the elevator breaks down, a resident cannot break the contract with them. I suppose you could which there'd probably be a law suit. Life has such challenges, but I believe I would never sign a contract with such an addendum attached. Not good.
I thought I wouldn't be as tired if we spent some time resting before going to Grandparents Day, but I was wrong. Traveling wears me out. Traffic wears me out. My back hurts too much. I sound like Debbie Downer, don't I...but I'm just being real about being worn out. Bouncing back may not happen very quickly as I am about to start another round of providing care for my elderly mom.
STAYING IN MY FLUFFY PEACH COLORED HOUSECOAT FOR THE DAY. I needed to have a slow paced and restful day so badly as I am terribly tired from traveling long distance to Saint Louis and back HOME. Before that, we were on the road to Sapulpa, Oklahoma. Before that, I was going back and forth to Marion and Newton, Kansas because of Mom's stay in the Newton Hospital with a broken hip, surgery and staying with her as she rehabs.
Between the wear 'n tear of traveling and emotional issues tied up into all of this...I am a tired old woman. Now, Hubby might have a rip/tear inside his eye. Back to the doctor's for investigating some more and back I go to tend to my elderly mother. I'll be taking her to 4 medical appointments this week while Hubby stays HOME.
I've given this a great deal of thought and know that if Mom has another serious accident, I will not be able to stay with her for long amounts of time. She is 90 and would like to stay in her apartment. I hope she can, but realistically I think her living alone days are nearing an end and she will need to be in a HOME for medical attention, meals, laundry, medicines, etc.
She has no business driving a car anymore as she drives entirely too fast and has lost her eye sight in one eye. While she is recouping with this broken hip, she won't be driving her car. I don't trust her to use good judgment after awhile and believe she will try to drive herself to doctor appointments in the future. These days need to be over. I'll be checking into their community shuttle bus.
I won't be able to take her to weekly medical appointments. She will have to ride a shuttle bus. Between my husband's health issues and my own...I am emotionally drained. I love her, still I do not live in her community. If we move her to a nursing home around here, it will take some doing as we found out that they are not taking new residents. A waiting list.
Then there's her furniture, clothing, knick-knacks, pictures, personal affects, dishes, cookware, etc. to deal with. The timing isn't good when it comes to our health challenges and moving an elderly mother into a nursing home.
How does one grow old gracefully? With dignity? With health? If I figure this all out, I'll let you know. I know that having less stress is necessary. Being out of debt...very important. Doing things that one enjoys...a must. Staying out of trouble...a good thing.
Praying for strength, endurance, and peace.
Let there be harmony in my Home and life.
~d
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