There's a small library case, a lamp, a box full of books and magazines, Ironstone pieces, and a large clock with some other things. I'll take some clothing over and vanity drawers. Shall see what else can fit in the car. Gotta get dressed and groomed and off I shall go. I wrote out correspondences this morning which catches me up for a bit. HUBBY and I had a business meeting this morning which helps me stay on track. Fills me with direction and drive.
The main focus is on moving things out of the main house a little at a time as this is the best pace I can work with having health issues and old age. Slower than a turtle, but moving. When I check out how much money for expenses are going through our hands, it helps me get motivated to keep moving forward on this adventure of relocating. Drastically tapering off expenses gets me excited that we will see the day when our expenses are minimal. Praise the LORD. It is taking drastic steps to get there. Being PRO-ACTIVE means drastic changes on how things are done. It can take place and become doable. It's doable. Doesn't necessarily make it easy, but it is doable.
Each move has been different and this one is by far taking more energy and time compared to other moves. We continue to remodel the COTTAGE and declutter to downsize. I have thought about how the COTTAGE should look. Making a dream into a reality takes perseverance, prayer and time, muscle and sweat. Prayer, planning and pacing ourselves will get us there.
THIS WEEK WILL BE BUSY. So busy.
Out the door I need to go to load up possessions. I'd like to plant the rose bush my children gave me for Mother's Day. It's lovely.
Went for labs on Friday. Feeling better as my Thyroid TSH has risen some over the last few weeks from a 0.04 to a 0.78. Changing the thyroid serum is slow. I am now in their so-called range, but still too suppressed. Aiming for a 1. I'll get checked by the APRN in three weeks I think. This go round of blood work was out of my pocket arranged by myself and walkinlab.com. I wanted to know if the TSH was raising or not since it had stayed too low even with a dose change. For peace of mind I wanted to know where it was as I wait for a different TSH reading.
I feel better knowing where my TSH is. Because of more lab work that will take place in two weeks to prepare for a hospital stay for a surgery procedure to check my uterus and take a sample, I am not suppose to take herbs so I have to cut this out for a couple of weeks before returning to take them. Complicated as I would like to be healthier.
Not too excited about having a D&C, but need to know how my insides are doing when dealing with my aging uterus. I was bleeding with large clots during January and February which did stop after my thyroid meds were raised. There is a connection between having too high a TSH reading and bleeding even if you are menopausal and should not be bleeding at all.
The wonderful doctors will have to figure this one out to be in agreement with my forthcoming findings. It may not be my fibroids at all causing bleeding or cancer, but by having wonky thyroid issues. Hello somebody. My December 2022 Pap test turned out fine. So did a biopsy I had taken from my vajayjay. I really don't think I have cancer, but shall see. Sometimes lots of test are taken to rule out certain things, but in reality some of the possibilities are never addressed just ignored which may be the actual cause of ill health.
I'm eating more salads and trying to eat way less highly processed food. Back on the ORGANIC WAGON and this is the way I want to be. An ongoing thing to do.
After visiting with my ailing cousin, God bless her, I could tell that she is not open to changing her eating habits that could help her feel better and maybe heal her. Being rebellious has a price tag to it. She has battled four different cancers over the years. Lung, tonsil, kidney, non-Hodgkins lymphoma. Now she has lung cancer again. She's seriously overweight and has no strength or energy. One of her sisters is big on organic and it irritates her.
I fought going organic for years. I thought I couldn't afford it, but if you get cancer from ill eating then it will cost you far more in the long run. I feel so much better when eating organic and that means a great deal to me. I'd rather feel good and be healthier than ill. I've been both. I desire to lose weight and be a light weight than dealing with this heartache of being FAT and unhealthy. Tried to justify being FAT for so many reasons that I stunk. I know I need to be healthy and stop kidding myself that FAT is alright. It isn't and it is a reality that I need to continue this road of change I am on. I can admit that I failed, but desire to succeed which means I have to change and that's that.
I know a pretty, young woman who is addicted to anger and wants reasons to be that way. I believe she is addicted to ANGER and likes it. Easier to stay put and easier for her to not change. Likes the attention she gets for being so angry. It becomes a way for her to control others that love her and have a reaction to her anger. Being willing to constantly complain with anger, being frustrated, and determined to stay in a toxic lifestyle is an addiction she has.
It is far more enjoyable for her to complain and not change her living situation than to actually be productive and change. She has a power struggle gong on with herself. Doing things differently is unheard of because when you keep hitting a dead horse with the same stick in hopes of resurrecting the dead horse to get the results you want, you'll find out that the horse stays dead and you're still hitting it in the same way with the same stick with no success of raising the horse from the dead.
Dead they are and dead they will stay so how long does one continue to be unproductive? How long do you continue doing things that are unproductive? Is it ignorance, rebellion, laziness or addiction to wanting to be a failure at changing? Maybe FEAR. The comfort zone of being addicted to failing with great frustration may be the reason you are not able to walk away from an unproductive lifestyle. The wrong way of dealing with a problem may be the problem. How long do you scream and be irritated about how frustrated you are? How long do you stew about how awful a situation is before you hang it up and decide this isn't working for me? The results I have aren't taking place. I'll keep screaming, continue to be unhappy and frustrated so I don't have to be successful. I'll waller in the mess until I die.
Is the wallowing a type of temper tantrum? Having a temper tantrum because you aren't getting your way? If being stubborn and not willing to admit you are wrong, gives way to a temper tantrum, then what?
She is putting on weight to where she is winded when walking. Ignores healthy foods, overloads on sugar, doesn't exercise and lays around all day. She is approximately 200 pounds over weight. Unhealthy and wanting to be? Not a recipe for success, is it? Misguided. Love me for me means what? Being unwilling to change is sometimes a choice that the person wants. There are consequences to being rebellious.
I'm not perfect by any means, but processing health issues has a purpose and a place that I am dealing with myself. How long does a person want to be unhappy in their unhealthy behavior? Decision time. This is going to require change. DO it.
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weather: cloudy and cool
looking out my window: I see a lovely yard, gray skies and tree branches moving in the breeze
right now I am blogging
thinking/pondering: about life, people I love and getting busy for the day so I get stuff done
listening to: a noisy electric fan to move air about the room
how I feel: tired, but contented
breakfast plate, lunch plate and supper plate: I fasted until 1:30 so breakfast and lunch were one... teaspoon of peanut butter, two long celery stalks, water and V8. Medicine. yummers. not sure @ supper yet, but hope to eat lots of veggies and some fruit. maybe a smoothie with kale, pineapple, yogurt, ice cubes and water
wearing: peach colored lush housecoat and getting reading to put some work clothes on
reading list: dr. colbert's book @ pillars of health
tv this week: call the midwife, red notice, maybe an action pact movie
menu: low calorie, low carb meals, organic as possible meals
looking at house: messes everywhere because we're packing, downsizing and moving
to do list: to do it all
from camera: 👶
devotional: king James version
A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.
2 The tongue of the wise useth knowledge aright: but the mouth of fools poureth out foolishness.
3 The eyes of the LORD are in every place, beholding the evil and the good.
4 A wholesome tongue is a tree of life: but perverseness therein is a breach in the spirit.
5 A fool despiseth his father's instruction: but he that regardeth reproof is prudent.
6 In the house of the righteous is much treasure: but in the revenues of the wicked is trouble.
7 The lips of the wise disperse knowledge: but the heart of the foolish doeth not so.
10 Correction is grievous unto him that forsaketh the way: and he that hateth reproof shall die.
11 Hell and destruction are before the LORD: how much more then the hearts of the children of men?
12 A scorner loveth not one that reproveth him: neither will he go unto the wise.
13 A merry heart maketh a cheerful countenance: but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken.
15 All the days of the afflicted are evil: but he that is of a merry heart hath a continual feast.
16 Better is little with the fear of the LORD than great treasure and trouble therewith.
17 Better is a dinner of herbs where love is, than a stalled ox and hatred therewith.
18 A wrathful man stirreth up strife: but he that is slow to anger appeaseth strife.
19 The way of the slothful man is as an hedge of thorns: but the way of the righteous is made plain.
20 A wise son maketh a glad father: but a foolish man despiseth his mother.
21 Folly is joy to him that is destitute of wisdom: but a man of understanding walketh uprightly.
23 A man hath joy by the answer of his mouth: and a word spoken in due season, how good is it!
24 The way of life is above to the wise, that he may depart from hell beneath.
25 The LORD will destroy the house of the proud: but he will establish the border of the widow.
27 He that is greedy of gain troubleth his own house; but he that hateth gifts shall live.
29 The LORD is far from the wicked: but he heareth the prayer of the righteous.
30 The light of the eyes rejoiceth the heart: and a good report maketh the bones fat.
31 The ear that heareth the reproof of life abideth among the wise.
33 The fear of the LORD is the instruction of wisdom; and before honour is humility.
2 comments:
What a great gift of rose bushes! Hope they flower well at the cottage. I agree with you, if you don't change anything, nothing will change.
Right now I am reading Dr. Axe for health.
Have a great week
Wow, I didn't even realize though I guess I knew that we were halfway through May. Oh, rose bushes are always so nice. Hope you have a wonderfully happy and healthy rest of your week!
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