DIFFICULT WEEK

I HAD JOURNALED A LOT OF FEELINGS in a cheap spiral notebook.  Took me hours to get a grip on what has transpired over the years.  It was my time to deal with some pain. The LORD ministered to me as to why I have had so many unresolved feelings.  Fear.    

Husband and I talked through the feelings attached to events through the years.  There was a link.  We talked about 5 hours solid.  Slept well and woke being better.

Hubby and I both have issues with not having thyroids.  He was due to have a lab done to see where he is at on his TSH.  He had a MRI on his foot that has been difficult to walk on due to dancing on a bean can in the snow last January.  He had a chemical stress test done and this made him sick.  So he had a blood draw for TSH, an MRI on his foot and a chemical stress test for heart.  

I'll have my TSH checked again in 3 weeks when I have my yearly physical.  I have 3 weeks until then so I started the 21 day Daniel Diet again.  No tea this time.  No meat.  No animal products. No milk, bread, pasta, rice, cereal.  Hubby is doing it with me.  Lots of fruits, veggies, legumes, seeds and nuts.  Of course WATER.  

We ate a huge salad for our afternoon meal at JASON's.  This evening for supper was meatless chili with three beans like kidney, chili and pinto.  This was delicious and we can do this restricted diet.  

I weighed myself today to see where I am on the scales.  In three weeks, my yearly physical is coming up and I am hoping to have dropped a few pounds since I have changed my thyroid meds dose and eating more restrictive.  When the weight starts creeping up, I need to see if my TSH numbers are wonky.  I'm hypothyroid.

It's a bit much to have to pay so much attention to all the health issues.  Still have to have an interest in other things.  Still blessed.  

The week was challenging, but believe it will be alright come SUMMER.  Hot temps are here. Fireflies, lemonade and fans.  Firecrackers, flags and home-made ice-cream.  Music, fried chicken, potato salad, baked beans.  Sounds like a decent Summer.  Some patriotic banners can be hung.  I know where they are this year.  grins.  I'll turn one year older come the 14th of July. It will be a Summer to remember.  

I started watching the television series BILLY THE KID.  I couldn't help but think about the early days of America and the harsh reality of traveling across the country in hopes of a brighter future.  What we have now is far better than what the average person had in the late 1870s.  That present day saying, "Make America GREAT Again." reminds me that America is still GREAT. Hasn't stopped being great.  Such a long ways America has come and to say it isn't great makes me sad.  A brighter future arrived for the United States a while back.  Cannot you still see the greatness?      

~d