BEING FLEXIBLE IS THE NAME OF THE GAME, if you're playing a game called LIFE. I'm living at LIFE, but have to stay flexible or I won't make it. Being rigid with schedules sometimes is required, but if you don't stay flexible with the flow, you may break.
This morning, I worked on scheduling medical appointments which are adding up. I'm a bit hesitant to make other plans as these medical appointments are a priority right now as I have uterine cancer. It doesn't seem like a reality to me at the moment. I'm going through the motions for sure. I hear everything that is said to me and yet, it's surreal.
Is that God's grace or am I in some kind of denial that I am knocking at death's door?
One lady phoned me to let me know that I have to be in KANSAS CITY in person to visit with a nurse, pharmacist and anesthesiologist before surgery. Meaning another trip before surgery. I received another phone call about scheduling to visit about my family GENES. That's scheduled. Another phone call about mammograms. Scheduled. I could hardly understand the lady on the other end and could hear other's voices in the background scheduling appointments. I wondered if she were in a different country working for a scheduling company. Perhaps the doctor out sources this job. Another medical appointment about Bone Density. Scheduled.
I will be as ready as I can be for surgery. Prayers sent. My household will not be in order before that moment. Between remodeling and packing, the house is in a uproar. My nerves have been a tad bit frayed. Only so much I can do.
Just about ready for fixing a large salad for lunch then Hubby and I will move the two grey recliners outdoors. We have been using these recliners for five years. They will go to the curb marked FREE! Perhaps someone will haul them away for us. They will be replaced with two electric recliners we had stored upstairs in the junque room. They will work well for me to sleep in after my surgery later this month. They're like brand new and only been used a few times.
Even though the gray recliners are falling apart on us, I'll miss them. I liked the color they are and they were very comfortable. They squeak, click, pop, shift, don't hold the feet up when reclining and the leatherette covering, that was suppose to be all leather, is peeling. Under 5 years old.
Never again will I buy furniture from FRANKLIN FURNITURE. Never. We were sold a bill of goods and when we turned in the warranty for the peeling, we were told the peeling leatherette is from NORMAL wear and tear which isn't covered. We were not abusive to the recliners and they fell apart. End of story.
ON THE MOVE. The packing and stacking continues.
MORE PAPERS TO GO THROUGH. I thought I was finished. NOPE. As I went through some old papers from the 2016 house fire, I decided that I could go ahead and pitch these receipts and pictures of what we lost in the fire. It boggles my mind at how disorganized I stayed after the fire. Thinking back, we had our hands full working at getting reestablished and setting up the household. My health continued to fail with a diseased gall bladder and a very bad back. After I received a flu shot, my lower back began having excessive pain that was debilitating. I couldn't stand more than 10 minutes before I had to sit. Knee pain kicked in. 2020 hit with co vid and that's pretty much a given about what became a mystery concerning the virus and changing everything about daily living that I pretty much knew. In April 2021, I was informed that I was NOW a diabetic with high cholesterol. My back pain was still a problem, but I had started to lose weight. Physical therapy took place for my back in which I had to wear a facial mask. That was a hoot. Horrible breathing issues with this.
My back discomfort got better after therapy and I started working in the COTTAGE cleaning it out because it was full of everything. We were using it like a warehouse. As of date, I have shredded over 40 years worth of papers, receipts, statements, etc. Thousands of pieces of paper that had to be looked at and handled. My favorite cousin passed away. My dear brother passed away.
We'd suffer with co vid last summer. Tearing into the COTTAGE's Garage and shed, we have been in over our heads with remodeling. Takes time and muscle. Not to mention the continued downsizing and packing up for our move. Bringing large pieces of furniture downstairs that have been upstairs in this main house has been a workout and the rooms are being dismantled. Now the cancer diagnosis and treatment to follow.
During this entire time I have struggled with fatigue and my TSH numbers have not stabilized. Investigating about what is in the medicines I take, who manufactures them, where do they get their API (active pharmaceutical ingredients) and their inactive ingredients. Next thyroid appointment I will be gentle, but firm about telling the APRN that I want some investigation as to why my TSH numbers have not stabilized. What's my gut doing? More research to do so I am prepared with a general knowledge as to what to do next. You all know that Synthroid, their main medicine they prescribe, was not FDA approved for over 46 years while they still used it. 46 years. 46. I continue to have hypothyroid symptoms. help.
This morning I came across another pile of papers that have been looked at and pitched. The upstairs junk room has more to be dealt with. Downsizing the papers is a headache, but it's got to be tended to. I had order, but lost it with the house fire and getting back to where I was is taking place. I'm not sure how long this will take, but I know I must do it.
Lunch is out of the way. Now to take care of the recliners and replace them with our brown sueded ones that are electric which will come in very handy to sleep in after the surgery. I have a place to recover now. Getting in and out of the chair should be easier this way. Not having to manually get up and out of the recliner with a abdominal incision will help when the time comes. Praise the LORD.
We bought these recliners maybe 4 years ago. My thinking was, we may need these as old people. They were brand new when I discovered them at the TOPEKA's HABITAT FOR HUMANITY RESTORE. They were just brought in that morning. I jumped on the bargain. Now we will use them for such a time as this.
as I have to be flexible.
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